Unsecure..

Feeling extremely unsecure when my life is boring and peaceful..

What do I actually need?

My Prince Silly**

You are not the prince that I always dream of..

You are not as charming...

You didn't ride on a white horse..

You didn't come from a castle..

You are not observative enough with every change that happen to me..

You didn't give me the surprises which I had been expecting..

You are the one who spent the whole day in the market and kitchen just to give me a good dinner..
You are the one who doesn't ride on the white horse but an ugly green sedan who never fail to pick me up on time because you know I hate to wait...
You are the one who always tell silly crap and jokes just to make me smile..
You are the one who enjoys shopping with me even it is really boring..
You are the one who answers all my questions with another question..nah..this is irritating!! But you know just how to make me smile again...
You are the one who makes really ugly scary silly face whenever you see a stressful me...
You are the one who likes to sing to me no matter where as if there is nobody's business..
You are the one who makes lovely fruit platter just to make sure I have enough fruits everyday...

I am independent,  I can take care of a million things on my own...
Somehow, I wish there is someone who I can rely on..
You are not the charming Prince who I used to dream of..
But you are the silly Prince who I can rely on...
The independent side of me disappear when you are around..
I enjoy sitting in the car that you drive, no matter how long the journey is...
I enjoy every dishes you made...
I love lying on cosy sofa forever, because you will bring me water and food as well as a good movie!


Life has been hectic and I am flat out with works....
Surprisingly, most of my time has been consumed by works and stress..
I wonder, what happen if I need to travel to somewhere else for work?
It was the beginning when I planned to wear all my lovely clothes for work, paying attention to all the details of my appearance before heading to work in the morning...
Haha, I fail..
Wake up 15 minutes before 9am, put up whatever I can grab from the warddrobe, here I am! Vivienne of the day...
People thinks I am stressed out and looked pale..
In fact I am, but the main reason I looked pale is because I didn't do my make up....
No motivation to work every morning because the early winter make the bed so cosy..
No time for breakfast, the reason is... I prefer to sleep for 10 more minutes...
Trying to finish a yogurt in the workplace but it just took me forever because the ringing of the phones.....
Nearly scream out loud sometime...
The motivation of the day is, babe is not working during the night and I will be able to see him at home ..Thanks for being there taking care of the daily stuffs....

Weekends... I love weekend... more than I ever thought...
It is so short though...At this time of the Sunday night, there is always something there playing with my feeling..
Something bitter, something uncomfortable.. kind of sad..
Sad that the weekend is just over too soon....
I am getting there..I am getting there, keep telling myself this to stabilise my confident at work...

I want to get drunk... wonder how it feels like when one is drunk.....
I am so in love with the resort that is built in the middle of the sea, with glass-made floor in the room and I can see the cystal blue sea through the floor!...please....bring me there some day....

I am lucky enough to have everything I always want for..
Really appreciate everything in my life now....
With a full time job,a lovely sister here with me and my Prince Silly!
However, I am greedy! Working towards my aim, step by step...
Yeah! I know I can do it!!

A good starting..A fruitful year..

With the arrival of the Rabbit Year..

Everything has been surprisingly smooth and falling in the plan...

Saying goodbye to family and friends in Malaysia is so so so torturing....

Having a tight schedule during that 2 weeks at hometown, it is full, it is exciting, it is alot of struggling whether to go home for good.....

I would rather I had never made the decisions to go home for only two weeks...

This trip home, I got my eye Lasik done,love the life without glasses!

I met my dearest friend, had a long long long chat..heart by heart...

I had my cousin always there with me..

It isn't that short afterall...Isn't it?

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This time I wasn't crying in the flight...

I felt sad but not that sad that caould make me burst into tears...

Staying strong..

Because I know this time is different..I am going to meet new challenges, an exciting one in fact...

I am excited.....

I got a job offer during my stay in Malaysia..

Yes, a job offer without even to be interviewed! How surprise it is!!

It is a position of Assistant Accountant in Edengardens Finance Department!

Woohoo!! It is exciting I know, but then at the same time, I got an interview with a Australia Healthcare Group!!

hmm... It wasn't that exciting after this..

I needed to reply Eden before I touched down in Sydney, but I will not be happy by giving up the interview..

Dilemma...I needed to make a decision.. My good luck might be drove away with my greediness..

So, I accept the job offer!! With reasonable wages,with the job scope that is just suitable for a fresh graduate.. with the walking distance from home!!

The job is just waving to me and it looked "tasty"....

Did I give up the job interview?

NO... hehe...

I wanted to try myself up even I know I will not travel 1.5 hours to work everydyay..

A healthcare group, sound like a big company afterall...

Out of curiosity.. I went to the interview on Friday..

I could only say my nonsense talking skill is not working during a "proper" interview....

I couldn't really answer every questions.. In fact, I wasn't prepared as well....

Feel so lucky that I didn't need to go through interview for the Eden Job...
However, I accidentally found out that the Manager that interviewing me in the Healthcare group actually likes me! She has started checking up my personalities with the people I knew....haha..I feel sorry now..
It is ok, she likes me doesn't mean that she is going to offer me the job....

Lalalala....

Yes, I am a full-time worker now with weekends to be spent on something else!

This is my working desk! I have super flexible time at this company,I can start at anytime and finish at anytime as long as I work 3 hours per week,imagine I couldn't wake up in the morning,and it will only took me 5 minutes to be at work..The only things that I feel uncomfortable is my boss want me to wear casual (jeans with t-shirt) instead of formal..The problem is my closet is full with all dresses and formal pants!

My office is just at the end of this lovely foot path..can escape into the garden once a while... how nice...

The third at work now...so far so good... I expected this week is a challenging one but in fact my boss just letting me relaxing..... He is a good boss with an effective way in mentoring me.. aww... I am pampered by the lucky star.....

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It was the tuesday morning when I was thinking I should call Immigration to check my Visa status up!

I logged into the "checking status" page and it all looked normal..

So blue... with the page blue in color..my desktop blue as well..

End of the day finally and there is a message from babe saying  we might get the PR..

Logged in and check again..Yes! I didn't realise the tiny difference in the blue page!

We Got Our PR!!

Surprise!!!! unbelievable..

Thanks dear friends for sharing the joy with us...

It is going to make huge differences for us!!

2011 is going to be so exciting, so unexpected (in a good way), so colourful....

I appreciate everything now... I sincerely do...

I am grateful that the lucky stars has been taking care of us...

Our hard work has gave us some results...

Time to have a new milestone.. Time to plan for the Real Future...

This is a great start of the year and it is going to be a fruitful year !

For everyone!!

...I am so in love with the sky...

Appreciation from kind people..

Surprise...
I got this from Judy, the Accounts Payable lady that I have been helping with during last few weeks..
She is so kind and nice...
Feel great when been appreaciated...
My hark work payoff....

My lucky charm.....I love it!!
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* Review for the past.Anticipation for the future *

Come on...
It is time to write a review for 2010!
" I have no time to write my blog.."
" It is just not the mood to write my blog..."
Well... Maybe these are all excuses...
Excuses for my poor ability in managing my time...
Excuses for my laziness....

2010...
A tirelessly? , a torturing? , a hectic ?  fruitful?
It seemed like there was so much happenning!!
Although I am still struggling for a career..
Overall... Gain > Lost ..
I have met so much, tried so much, worked so hard...
Without my knowledge, I should have grown up alot...
With all the good and bad experiences...

By getting over all the depressions and discouragements...
I learnt the lessons, I have to learnt it..

By coming across all the new people I met..
It reminded me how lucky I am to be giving the opportunities to fight for my future..
With the dearest by my side.. supportively no complaints....

2010 is definitely the most significant year of my life..
Standing at that point..
It was confusing, uncertainties, fear, worries, hesistating....

Sometimes, I just felt that I was pushed by the time instead of I am chasing the time..
Lying on the couch, I could have millions of plans in my mind..
and the next second, I found myself in the dream and the next thing I knew is time to dress up and go to work!
That is just a typical normal day for me...
Work and Lying on the couch....
I could have done more than that..

However, sometimes I could be rediculously unreasonable because of pushing myself too much..
Worrying myself with all the family stuffs..
Annoying myself with a tiny household cleaning...
Stressing myself with the uncertainties in the future..

Yes, this is me... I need a balance..where I could place myself comfortably..
A point where I can keep going with my daily life as well as fighthing for the future..

2011..
Welcome.. It was a great start with the fireworks..
It was just awesome.... speechless..
No matter whatever bad happened in the 2010, it ended..Since the fireworks broke the darkness..
How I wished the fireworks can go on and on endlessly..
I felt like I was back in the fairytale again which I haven't feel the way since ages ago....

Xiao Qin, your visit made our days!
Still feel sorry for not being able to accompany you throughout the journey and thank you
for accompanying us for the new year, the stories, the news, it made my boring day happenning!!
I only knew you now, your courage and bravery make me so proud to be your friend!

With the beginning of 2011... There is something good happening..

I was finally able to get a 3 weeks work experiences in the financial department of Edengardens...
It is only 3 weeks... I tried 3 times sending my resume in and finally I am accepted, but only for 3 weeks..
It is ok, I told myself.. I am gonna to prove my value to this company..
This is my 2nd week working in the office now, I learnt something! I finally learnt something!
I faces hundreds of invoice everyday..My eyes are so tired but it all worth it......
I will not hesistate to send in my resume for the 4TH times when the 3 weeks period ended......
Hey, yeah.. not giving up~~~

Somemore,
I was approached by the cafe manager for the supervisor position...
If not for the Accounting "career" that I am aiming for, I would have been the cafe supervisor 6 months ago..
Not denying.. I enjoy working in the cafe, I enjoy achieving , I enjoy impressing the managers...
The cafe, is where I have grown, gainned and felt....
 But that is not my aim, a cafe supervisor in Australia?
Am I being Stubborn? There was one second, I have the thought to take the offer..
" No, I am an accountant graduate!"
Am I being Silly?
I am so confused...
The manager is going away for 2 weeks, and she told me I will be in charge while the other supervisor is day off..
I am happy, I love the challenges.. and I love to be in charge!
Hahahaaaa..................................................
BUT.... because of this I need to end my office position earlier, it means I have less hours spent in office..
Therefore, is this a good / bad news?

There is alot of time, I was thinking...
My resumes might have been blocked by some reason,someone?
Because, Cafe is short of staffs...
Ther is alot of time, I feel bad...
Leaving my cafe managers busy looking for staffs, because of my desire to work in office...
I shouldn't care that much.. I need to make a clear line between cafe and office...
I shouldn't doing good in cafe so my office jobs is secure for at least 3 weeks time......

2011..
Here I am.. I have good feeling about this...
I am going to meet alot more nice people..
I am still lucky enough to have my babe being tirelessly supportive and caring..
I am fortunate enough to get closer with my sister, my family..
I am attractive enough to keep all my close old friends stick to me...hehehhee....

Babe,
Let's share the burden and fight together hand in hand again..
Shall we? Thanks... for everything.. every single little details...
Han,
You are a present from the god that I always take it for granted..
Here from now.. I know your existence is not guaranteed.. I miss you so so much...

Aijia,
our friendship is so peacefully tight..
it is time to catch up more and make some sparkles! so it will be tighter...hehe..how you think?
May,
I thought I am going to meet you during CNY..
About the Barcelona tour...keep the stories for all of us, looking forward to meet you again, you never fail to
accompany me when I went back for holiday.. It is ok, just for once, k?
Yeeting,
There is something different about you from your recent photos....gorgeous of cause!
Fill me in when I am back!
ZuoYing,
I know I know..I promised to write you letter to update you..
Check my blog up..I will try to keep updating..hehehe..I know everything about you,you are still so sweet with JinKun, we have been thinking when to plan to go back for your wedding...

Brissies..
You two..yes.. it is just so sweet to see your new love home...You guys just make it! Come over next year for new year~~ I want to share that precious fireworks moments with you!!
The Bali Guy,
You know who you are... your blog never fail to "entertain" alot of us...Gorgeous photos, impressive writings..Happy new year! dear old friend! come over Sydney next year for fireworks!!
I swear, I want to get a Camera, to record my 2011!

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To all my beloved..

I sprinkle the stars across your skies..

I send my blesses to you via them..

I hope you well, I wish you loved..

Let's make it the sweetest and fruitful year ever....