A castle-like church..
It was a moody afternoon...
Walking alone down the city..
My path led me to this park...to this church...
Suprisingly, the church is not closed...
I never been into it...which I always wanted to...
And that day.. I let myself in....
Forget about the time...forget about everything...
Just want to follow my feeling..my foot path...to wherever it led...
It is that long long long passage in between the stools..
It is so long that I imagined.. if there were a wedding,it took the bride and bride's daddy 5 minutes to walk to the groom....
sat down..
started flashing back...
My life.. My emotion...My Love...
I calmed myself and pray.....
Pray for a simplicity of happiness....
and I think it works.............
It has been a month since I touched down on Sydney land..
I felt..it has been ages...............................more than a month...
I did a lot of things...but yet...I felt not enough..something missing there...
We finally lodge our PR application on 1st of March...
it is kind of relief...a temporary relief....
At least I can fully focus on jobs hunting...it is so tough....
Each day....
I try to do something different..
I did the recylced for all my old magazines...
I got rid of that ugly basket which has been storing useless things...
I cooked big meal because the fridge is way too full..
I watched the last episode of desperate housewives that I have downloaded...argh...I should have kept it longer..
Now I am forced to focus on job searching again....
A month....
I have been carry on this routined lifestyle for a month...
Feel... not too bad....
I learnt not to stress up.. I learnt to be more optismistic...
and thanks to you...
You have been amazing..
you can manage your time wisely..
you still helped with a little bit of houseworks..
you cooked for me during your only day off...
and you never forgot to arrange a little date for us each week...
I find my confidence now...
I remembered the happiness..
I am contended....
Thanks... for your hard work.. on this relationship..
Thanks for convincing me that I had made a right choice...
The prayer I made... the simple happiness...
I understand now...it can be simple...
I have been demanding all the time..
I have been stubborn..well..actually I am stubborn...
Thanks for your toleration and company.......
As you said...Maybe we are the lucky one..
Not to worry too much.....Not worth to stress myself...
I am happy....simply happy....
I can do whatever I want...I can decorate our house as I like....
I should appreciate everything now...
Maybe I will lose my freedom soon because I get a job.! we never know...
Keep going on...Everything is just within control...
