Here I am..
A brand new page..
Another milestone in my life...
I wonder why everyone gives their blogs a new home here?
2010.. ended the old castle with an unpleasant blog..
I wish............
this is a brand new start..a simply happy start...
2009..
it was the last year for me to attend class in Uni..
it was when our first road trip carried out with our dearest friend..
it was ended with the meeting with my dearest family again back in hometown...
it wasn't the greatest year so far..
but it is definitely the year that marked down how I have been growing..
Learning and experiencing....
Good Bye..2009...
I promised I will live better ,experience more, being more understanding in 2010...
Hi, 2010..
It wasn't a good openning...
I was in tears on the day I board the flight heading back to Sydney..
Saying bye to my family..means so much.............................
it means I am gonna to start the new page of my life...
means there are alot of hardships ahead that I have to accept, endure, and get over it..
gave a big hugs to my family..for every of our dearest frens..you guys are superb!
it sorts of make up my regret when I set off in 2007... I was so hurry that no one gets a chance to talk to me....
thanks for coming........... it warmed up the long long passages in the airport...
It was silent in the aircraft..for me and him..
can't help crying..I found that I am scared of heading back here..
unsecure..uncertainties...challenges....
I want to be a little girl...with mummy around..daddy sayang..
I dont want responsibilities.......
It was an eight hours flight.......
We made promises...We set our goals...in the aircraft...
There are so much waiting for us in Sydney......Somethings bigger..
Somethings formal....Some obligations..............................
I am not the little girl anymore...
It has been 20 days since we came back....
we have determined to work hard while the plane touched down in Sydney...
Job seeking.... never let go of any hopes...never want to leave a single regret..
Those job searching wedsites are totally discouraging...
Graduate program always separates us from Aus citizen and PR..
Little office only afford to hire those with experience..
Medium companies.....I doubt my applications have ever passed the selection steps...there are thousands of applicants...............................
Doing part time waitress as I did...It seemed so meaningless to work there now..
Not much satisfaction,no more accomplishment to be achieved...
I find it boring....................... I need the money so I have to work...how cruel it is..
working in the morning and still working at home after sunset...
the difference is I get no pay for the job at night..
PR applciation forms,medical check up,sanning documents, typing resumes,reading rules...
how boring....but it is ok...I have to go through this..after this...everything will be just nice..
i need to motivate myself...I need to think positively...
My days are full.... full with every practical stuffs...
Even you are working every night,I never felt lonely...I won't let myself free from doing nothing... this is how I find you come home early! even it is already 12am..
I enjoyed the feeling that we both working hard...we are making our way to the goal..
it is not smooth...it is not a wide road..we can't see the end....we walk on it..
steadily...hand in hand.... we will be good....
However, I scared of unpleasant results......I need a fruit from every efforts I had spent...
It screwed up my emotion...I am strong...I don't ask for help...I am dealing all my
enquiries in my own way........... what a stubborn emotional oldie lady...
Yes,I am.... haha..
I am ok..I am alright...I will always find a way out of this.... because I cannot let myself
turnning into an old lady at the ages of 21!
I am lucky to have frens and family supporting...
no matter where they are,how far they are...
I miss everyone of you very much....
I take that as motivation, to breath in before digging my head into governments laws...
I need your supports to drive myself away from laziness and homesickness...
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Here, I wish........
this is a happy and fruitful year..
this is a healthy and meaningful year..
all the dreams come true...
for me n you
for everyone of you
Love
