March and Holy April!

Time flies..
an old and not special phrase that I will always use...
But it is so TRUE...

April...started with my DEAR friends' birthday...
I know there will be photos of cakes,of nice dinner,of lovely smiles..of all of your familiar faces!
and also sweet sweet blogs.... yeah..this is how I enjoyed the beginning of my April.....
Happy Birthday again,dear friends...you guys rock!!

March...has been so so full....
well...not surprising, full with that casual work and job huntings..
Good news is, I got ONE interview!!!! (1 and only 1)
Well...to me... a chance to be interviewed is a super big miracles and I really appreciated it.
Because, I am so confident that I can impress my potential employers as long as they give a chance to MEET them..... I am confident...I even think that it is their loss to reject me just by looking at my resume..
LOL.... sound like over confident...

It is ok..I was not nervous..I dressed like a professional..I read books teaching me the manner of interview..I reached there half an hour earlier before the appointment time.....
I had the perfect manner...There were TWO interviewers...
Questions.................I looked into their eyes.... answered what they asked...
and it ended...lasting 15 minutes.....
and I thought..."hey................ you haven't ask me my strengths! and damn, I haven't say anything relating to my strengths throughout those questions....."
hu..................................... I think I did well, but I knew there are many applicants for that positions..
That is not enough that I think I did well....since I have no idea what is "well" defined by them...
and I have no idea how good the others are...........................
However, I haven't lose my confidence...it is like there is a discouraging feeling  and yet there is a supporting voice from my heart.... I have very high ego...I don't want to lose...
so....... these 2 feelings is playing tug-of-war.... to prevent me from discouraging yet I am not so confident anymore....

They said they will call me in this coming weeks.....Let's wait and see..
In fact, I can't wait... I keep thinking all the possible reasons that I would be rejected..
Then I keep imagine what I should wear also If I got the jobs...LOL........
arhgh....... I have too much thoughts....thinking too much than anyone else...

Before I went for this interview.... I feel upset...
I am upset not because I am afraid that I will not perform well in the interview..
I am upset because I am afraid they will reject me......

After the interview...
I am upset also......
because..it is kind of sudden empty..which I can't give people a victory smile that I will have 90% chance to get the job... which also I can't shake my head and told myself forget about this and look for next...
It is in the grey area..so grey that I stopped my job hunting...
I am expecting something everyday yet it might be a disappointment waiting for me...
Well, I will pray...doing good deed everyday.....please....give me a chance....
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22th of March...
There were a red marking stating " 2000th days"
in my calendar...
wow......the 2000th days that we have been together!
You actually counted it..that is sweet...
There is no flowers no dress up no music.....
It is normal...and you cook for me!
Seafood Risotto....
You bring the "Pasar Trolley"
wearing your slipper.. like an Uncle going pasar shopping for food..
haha....I am happy enough even you just do the marking...
Because that already mean you care...and you really counted it....
In fact, whenever you have chance to stay at home for dinner...you have been the Chef..
I am spoilt now...super lazy when think of cooking...

Thanks for your planning...for your little decorations for the food...
for the cleanliness of the toilet...for the unlimited supplies of fruits in the Fridge!

I can confidently say that I am happy to be with you...
You have your way to make me laugh out loud..
To make me feel so safe and comfortable...
Even it has been 2000 days, you have been working so good...to keep me away from boredom and you never take things for granted....
We just appreciate what each other have did for each other....All the way down here...

It is not easy....It is in fact so hard..............................

Thanks, babe.... we make it! and we will be good..................................................

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Challenge of the month...
Our Parents,your Aunties are coming for our Convo!!
Well...it is excited...yet..challenging...
We need the abilities to make sure everyone making themselves at home..
yet comfortable enough while living under one roof...
Planning...Discussing...well..not to mention the details...It is definitely something that we can call a life time experience....
The travelling schedules...the stupid traffic law in Aus which only allows 5 people in one car while we have 11 people!!???!?
The 3 meals for everyone,for everyday... If we insist cooking at home everyday..
We could probably doing a catering business after this....
We need lot of energies for this! I will be waking up early and stay up till late...
make sure everything is in order and our family is happy...
Bless us...
I miss mum, dad and sis so much...can't wait to see them!!!