2010年11月2日 星期二

heavy heart..

Just another feeling-releasing blog....
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Feeling terrible..
Why should I care? Why should I need to care so much?
I can't ask for everything decided as I wish for...
I know it.. So, I would just let you do whatever you guys wish..
But Please..Can you guys just at least show me your sense of responsibility?
Why should I be nervous for your stuff..
I have had enough to worry!
I have been struggling so long to manage my emotion..To be optimistic..
To stand strong and still..
Go away....
Don't make me try to avoid...
Feel like crying...
Cry then... cry when typing this blog...when finish typing this blog..everything will be alright..
I want to show my happy face to everyone.. I don't want to be an old woman with unhappy face..

I need to prioritise all the stuffs in my mind...Too much happenning and I took each of it so seriously that I
am despressed constantly....

wuwuwuwuwu.................................................................................................
Go away.........!!..........


2010年10月30日 星期六

***October****** ;(

Have you ever feeling so down..
Feeling that there is something In between your heart that keep distracting you from moving on..
Feel so unmotivated...feeling grey..and blue....

The first CPA exam for me ended..on last Tuesday...
This was the exam that I pay the least attention ever..
Found out last minutes for the exam date...yet found myself unconsciously on the big
Pile of paper at only 11.30pm. the day before.. While out of 5 chapter,the last page
Of chapter 2 was drowned with my saliva....
At the exam hall,I was whispering to the people around me trying to borrow a liquid
corrector!! I had my pencil case still perfectly unworn but where are all the favorite pen and erasers?
What's wrong with me? I did put a lot of effort for sure...but I lost my motivation to do the last and essential Efforts! It is over...anyway I feel relief...yes I do..

I hate changes..as I always tell people...
And then I hate the boring,dull old routines more..
When changes are happening, I felt panic,helpless..
While no changes are introduced, I found myself almost drowning with all kinds of things that go through my minds!!
It was so good to be a kid,no worries,all I know is the duties for me to go to school,have fun, sleep well...
Yes, I am scared and refused to be a grown up, I admit...
I can feel the responsibility...
I can't help but keep increasing the burdens for myself...
I can't sleep well during my day off,because there were nightmares all the time...
I am stressing up and i know.. I am trying so hard not to affect the people around me..
I kept smiling to people at work,treating them as strangers...
I kept doing houseworks but I don't get the satisfaction anymore when I finished..
Is this just some kind of hormone effect? I wish...

There was always a goal...
I am lost now...
Stay and wait or Go and fight?
Stay and support or Stress and push?

In the Real Property Company...
I am nobody...and it has been 2 months..honestly,I didn't learn anything besides doing filing and filing...
I get sick of waiting to be given a "task"...wait n wait...
Questions:"Am I wasting my time?"
This is the trigger of my "unstable" emotions.
Maybe it was just two months.. The boss said they are growing..should I just wait for a few months? Probably....

Don't bother..this is a blog to release my hard feeling....feeling so much better now....

P/s: Shiun.just saw your comments! Yes, Real Property..I wish I could sell properties one day..if I have the chance...but for now...i really know nothing...tell me more when we meet! We are going back on 24th Jan!!!!!


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it is the babies and wedding seasons!
So many new born babies around me..and they are so lovely,so irresistible...
Can I just do nothing and looked carefully into your little face?
The wedding bells keep ringing..and the wedding songs keep delivering the love....
This is a season full with love....
Can I just bath in it and worrying nothing at all?

2010年9月1日 星期三

Bathing in September..Spring....


August isn't a quiet month at all.....

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Aijia...
Great to hear everything from your side that is getting better and better...
Your pain..your sadness..I wish..it is all over...
Great to see you stunningly standing in front of us during the graduation day..
You looked perfectly great...Look like I need to prepare my Spring wear and we are going out for fun soon!
Friend....actions speak louder than words....Keep going on! Always there to support each other,k?

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Stepping outdoor early in the morning on 1st September..
I felt the warm..the sunny sun shine..the freshy air!
Spring is here..and I love it! with no reason~~ 
That's a lovely feeling..telling me this is my month and everything is getting better....

That's was once I felt that the interviewer will definitely call me and offer the job...
and sadly, it was the opposite...
My feeling..from anxious.happy.full of hope.disappointed.tidy up.....
and then there is another hope again...
Feel like going to have a heartattack during those days..
Why is it so hard to fight for a spot in the society..
I am born to work hard....I did...but it is all about luck.....
It's ok..I will not give up..since I have already started..

I quit..in the College that I am working now..3 months full time..
It has been 3 months!! I worked almost 7 days a week...
I am leaving..yes, the boss's response wasn't what I expected...
It is ok, I sincerely wish her business going well...
The greatest things I got from here is I met good people...even the cleaner, Aunty Rose feeling sad to heard me leaving...but not the boss...
She obviously hasn't come out with an idea to stabilise her business..
Somehow,I feel sorry for her in ....
But.. I am glad that I am able to leave..I lost my enthusiasm working for her..

I am going to be a part time admin accounts assistant in a Real Property Company..
Another Chinese owned firm though..
It might not be a better option but I felt alive again to accept a totally different challenge ..
A different direction,different area...I can see the chance of improvement in this company...I determined to do great!

So..Yeah! 
This is my month~~ 
Job Hunting ended temporary..
I would have enough time to rest..
Gonna catch up with my CPA studies..
Aijia's OP and Convo going smoothly and ended beautifully..
and the flowers downstairs are in blossom!

There is something bothering me though..
whatever...I just want to feel relax..and relax for now..


















SEPTEMBER...
I Love You~

2010年7月30日 星期五

*~Trip with love in July 2010 ~*

It was 5th of July, the date that I have been waiting for ages…

It means I will be having my holiday soon! A proper break …..
After all the efforts you put in organizing this trip, it finally happens! Ho Aik Hui!

The Great Ocean Road that we have been talking for ages!

I just couldn’t believe that we have done that and it just over like that…

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6th July 2010

It was 7am in the morning while the guys are busying baking scones..

I saw you lying on the sofa and was asleep…

Welcome to Sydney, Jia Wen!



We were not familiar at all..

All I know is you are the biao mei of Yong who has sweet sweet smile every time I met you..



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Thanks to the camera borrowed by Aik! It is our HERO..

Without it, our lovely trip cannot be captured in such a delicate and detailed way..

Thanks to JOE—who the camera belongs to and generously guided us on how to use it!

We met good and kind people during the whole 10 days… It must be because we are good, friendly and happy people!



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It was the night when we were rushing to Canberra..

I was panic with my unpacked luggage!

In the mean time..

Wen has got all our toothbrushes, shower gels and shampoos..

Aik has got a big bags of all our chargers! And all electric stuffs…Imagine how handy it can be to put all the chargers together in a big bag!

Yong has got all the drinking waters ready, of cause snacks that he can’t live without..! haha

HU…………………What a relief…

The first time, I felt that we will be on a trip with caring FAMILY members…

It is so different…so heart-warming…spiced up with chemicals that brought four of us the closer ever….



After the home cook dinner and the must-finish TIRAMISU (5 days away…)

Aren’t we super full after the dinner? Yes, but the Tiramisu is just too yummy that we finished it within 10 minutes….hahha….

3 hours down to Canberra!

Nobody fell asleep! We were filled with excitement…

We still have fruits to be finished in the car!


Yong was driving…girls were trying to get rid of strawberries’ leaves..

Then what is Aik doing? Waiting to be fed! Hahaha….

Thanks Wen… you were so sweet feeding all of us!



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It was the day when we drove all the way up to Mt Perisher!

“哇。。。很美叻。。!”“下车拍照一下咯!!”

It would always take us at least 30 minutes to have enough photos taken…haha..

Freestyle… a time restricting trip is definitely not for us!

There were not snowing in the mountain…The snow on the floor are all old and solid…….

However.. we could still make it fun… digging the ice on the floor out just to dump each other..

Especially Ah Wen.. you were having so much fun!!

Putting ice into people shirt! I’m sure Aik will never forget the big ice cube in his hoodies..

If the snow were softer…I’m sure we will all be wet…

Never play like nobody business for such a long long time…..thanks guys….

The road from Snowy Mountain to Melbourne…was…..”AMAZING”…..

From what I can see in the GPS, it is a snake-liked “highway” which is 100km long!

We were surrounded by woods and the road was slightly steep as we were going down the mountain……..

Big clap for Ah Hui and Ah Wen! It was two of you who brought us out of the bush and scary road

While we fell asleep! LOL…sorry…..hahha….

A driver needs a company all the time during a long long road trip…

Somehow.. without any reminder or schedule…we knew it by heart..

If there were 2 of us falling asleep…there was always someone there who kept the driver company… ( Most of the time lah…)

Because we know, we care, we share and we love!



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It was around 1am when we finally reached Melbourne..

It is because we kept stopping to capture the scenery along the road during the day…

The two at the back seats were so exhausted after the snow battle and you guys missed the colorful overpass which welcomed us to Melbourne!

Each of them is decorated with different color lighting…. It is beautiful and romantic..

Don’t worry, we’ll be back........ for sure!

It was nearly three in the morning when we finally got ourselves in the black pajamas and fall asleep …

Except.. the guys still need some time to be in the right bed ,behave and sleep quietly ….

I remembered…nobody dreamed that night…

We were gathering energy for the rest of our trip..

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It was 7am in the morning.. our car had to be moved to somewhere else unless we wanted to pay the car parking fee…..

Therefore, Aik is responsible for this NOBLE Job…

Poor Ah Hui, already dressed up and sitting quietly in the dark waiting for us to wake up..

When we finally ready….. It was already nearly 11am…

4 of us…wearing the pink “Highway Robbery” Hoodies!

Here we go! Our first day in Melbourne!

We were walking on the street in Melbourne City trying to look for food!

Something wasn’t right…

People staring at us..weird… and then I just realized…. It is the shiny pink that made us extraordinary in that boring normal Friday!

A charity stall volunteer raised both of his hands indicating “surrender” when we passed by his stall…

Lol..the “highway robbery” sign printed on our shirt!...

One of the passer-by was so enthusiastic offering to take a photo for us…

People in the State Library were attracted and I think they were wonder what are these people doing here?

The State Library… It is just the best library I have ever been to…

It is really a good place to hang up in.. to think…to work..to study…

Some more, there is a room for kids to play K-box and PS!

We just couldn’t control but to took “2” photos again…

After ….1 hour? … we set off to Mornington Peninsula!!



“see.... 2km from here are those colorful wooden house!!” Aik were talking to Wen..

“Look! It is the houses in the flyer!!”

While AIk was talking…He didn’t realize that there is a whole rows of houses just 500m behind him! LOL….



Doggies were running around …..

The young parent was hand in hand strolling along the beach while the children were having a race with the cute puppy…

“Oops… the puppy poos on the beach!”

“No worry! Daddy got a plastic bag prepared for that!”

The single bulky man brought his big black dog for some exercises!

The mummy groups were sitting on the beach chatting and laughing…

There were 2 young mans in Pink struggling to get a tripod standing properly..

Hahaaha…ya…it is the two of you!!

We just couldn’t wait and start taking photos…

It is simply LOVELY………

It is so peaceful… so beautiful… and so relaxing!!!



Tripod ready!

*Let’s Jump!

*Let’s Laugh Out Loud!

*Let’s acting cool!

Let’s sink into the sunshine of this lovely peninsula!

Another 200++ photos.. at least…

Who care? As long as the camera is still working! Hahaha~~


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It was around 10pm when we finally finished our dinner and heading back to the motel..

Dress up again and head to the Casino!

Before that.. one apple each! and look at the mirror say “cheese”!

Crown.. Impressive.. an undoubtly world class entertainment center!

There was the castle-liked stair case leading all the way down to lobby from the hotel…

I love the little music fountain just beside the stair…..

Looking at those thousands droplets dancing with the music…

There was one moment…I forgot where I was because of too concentrating…

Aww……. Can I see this everyday? I don’t want to go back to the reality….

Not to miss the fire show outside the Casino!

It was freezing and we were waiting….and waiting….

Boom! Wah…If someone tall was there…he might feel that her hair is burnt in 1 seconds time…

Well..we believe Aik at the end who claimed that the fire show will make us feel warm……

It is truly impressive!!



We need to go pass Yarra River to get back to the motel….

It was a special night…. As a friend.. as a close friend…as if a family member…

We were looking forward to something…

Whatever it is…Whatever how it is gonna be…

We were so proud of having you and you!!!

It was freezing.. on the road back to Fomulae 1 motel..

Along the river…. I learnt something…

The way that you express…… the way that you response……

And the way you handle it….

So mature… you got all our supports and best wishes..

No matter what the results are….


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I remembered the Great Ocean Road was first heard from Aik..

Known as the highway along the cliff…

We must go there one day!

Yeah.. we made it…we finally made it!!!

Driver: Kelvin

Photographer: John

Passenger: Kamen and Vivienne

Date: 11th July 2010

Destination: Great Ocean Road




Despite raining… our spirits were never affected…

Also thanks to the rain… we saw rainbow!

A perfect shape rainbow!! Raise from the sea level…


I remembered how happy you were! Wen…

Yeah..Rainbow… it has magic..to make us smile..to make our day!

I remembered when I first saw such a nice rainbow… I was about to scream..because I love it! But there wasn’t anyone there who was as excited as I was..

So,I buried my happiness.. and stopped my scream~~

Now, it was Wen… who made me release my laughter! It is awesome to have someone there to share…to scream out loud! Because it is the RAINBOW!!!

We stopped the car…… Looking through the rainbow… it is the sea…borderless..

Wen, remember we scream out loud together?

Scream as loud as we can to the sea…Let the sea bring the sadness away and the rainbow was left to guide us all along the road…safely…happily…without worries!



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The wildlife Koala!!

Isn’t Koala an endanger species?

We saw them! Just like that…no ticket needed… no need to queue up…

Well.. I would consider this as something lucky…

They are so cute and so lively..

Although some are asleep but there were quite a few that just couldn’t stop eating!

There was one hanging at the end of the branch…

When the wind came… It was swung along with the branch…

We were so worry that it might fall down and get hurt!

When the wind stop… guess what it did?

It had no intention to go back to the big branch at all!!

Continue eating like nothing happen! Awww…so cute!!!



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It was the last day in Melbourne..

Queen Victoria Market …

The pasar for western!

It is neat and tidy..

It is clean and spacious..

I would really enjoy hanging in there shopping…

It is just different from Paddy’s Market in Sydney..

I remembered the FISH Icecream introduced by Aik…

Yumm Yumm.. with red bean in it!

Also, I also remembered the Smoothie bought by you guys!

It is mixed with too many fruits… and we all think that it is overmixed..

Of course, the American Doughnut sold in a rectangular van!

With long long long queue…

We knew we run out of time..We knew we need to get back to the car…

We just couldn’t say no to food and enjoy queuing up!

Freshly fried Doughnuts! With strawberry custard in it!

Here… feed you lah.. I know you lazy to use your hand..

We share share lo~~



We needed to take the tram to go back to get the car…

Here come the free city circle tram..

But it is so jam-packed that while we were lining up to get on to it..We got a chance to chat with the driver!

He is so nice! Welcome us to Melbourne and then trying so hard to speak loudly to the people in the tram just to help us make it…

There was a lovely family with 2 beautiful girls get onto the “sardine” tram.. We gave up the seats for them…Looking at them from the standing position was sweet… Imagination goes wild again… I wonder what would it take to build a family..is it tough? I wonder when are we going to have a lovely family like this….
what would happen to four of us in the near future?


Saying Bye to Melbourne…is sad…

And I swear…we swear…we must visit there again!! Together!!


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When was the last time I watched a basketball match?

Ages…ago…

Well… after leaving high school…

That was the first basketball match for me!

Somemore it is played by Malaysian in a foreign land.

Of cause, we are interested because of our friend is in the team!

It was really freezing in the morning…

I heard someone is doing the breakfast…

Hahha….Aik actually wake up early and prepare everything for us!

Because he worried nobody going to send him to the Uni and watch his matches…haha..

Friend…. No matter how early we need to get up… No matter how tired we are..

No matter how freezing it was… No matter how……

We will support you de shi mah! No worries~~

Photos…I think there were at least 200++ photos in that morning…

Miss Ah Wen had been a dedicated and outstanding photographer~~

Admire her persistence! Big *clap clap*

There were so many precious shots that I am sure a lot of the players would be surprised and feeling great to see the other side of them on the court!


Especially Mr Ho! You can have a whole album showing your every expressions during your play…

It was a good one! And you guys got the champion!

I still remember cheering out loud with Wen for you guys like nobody business…

Feeling great, no worries at all and feel happy and nervous as if we were one of the members of the team….



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It was the sunny sunshine day where people would be so in love with everything they see!

Manly beach~~ where I fall in love with..

We saw Dolphins! Yes… is dolphinS…they are playing in the sea…

They just made the day lovelier…

The sky was decorated with pure white cloud…

The beach was beat by the lovely wave…

People on the bike..People with the dogs..People with kids..

I love the every scenes I saw..I love the beach…

Again…we jumped..we laughed..we enjoyed every seconds with heart..

People looking at us as if they were wondering “ how good it is to be young..”

Yea! We are four lovely happy young people on a 10 days holiday!

Who care….. whatever it is… at that moment…

Why can’t we stop the time?

Stop at that moment where we have no worries..

Stop at the moment when we laugh out loud together..

Stop at the moment when we are so close..



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We had the pink hoodies uniform..

We tried the sporty wear for basketball…

We also wore the casual shorts with t-shirt plus slippers to the beach..

Here come the formal one…for the Buffet dinner in Casino…


Wen, I am so proud of myself making you extraordinary lovely..
You are perfect in that dress.. Like a princess~~

No worry.. we will do it again!

Guys… you two looked ok lah…Pass…

I guess you guys had a wonderful dinner because of two pretty ladies’ company…

The chance doesn’t exist all the time so a plate of well-peeled prawns was just small case, isn’t it?





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I hate airport…

Especially going there to say bye…

The feeling is like someone is grabbing your heart.. so hard.. make it so uncomfortable..

Wuwuwu….

16th July.. why is it so fast? The time flies without even noticing us……

It was the morning…a quiet one…

Wen.. It is hard to send people off.. it is harder to send you!!

It is like living in the fairy tale during that 10 days…

We were having so much fun.. we were so so so close…

We scream together to the rainbow…

We cheer together for Aik Hui.

We sing together in the car..

We sleep together to warm each other..

We jump together anywhere we could…

We laugh together like a child…

We feed each other to make sure everyone has enough food..

We *hug hug* each other at the airport…

And remember?

We tried a lot of cute pajamas in Peteralexandra…

We told each other everything…anything….

We were still taking care of the exhausted guys while they stole our bed..

We hate milk! Hehe…

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I miss you…

Even you were crying you still want to joke…

It nearly forced my tears out…..I was controlling myself..

I didn’t want to let you see I cried...

We can’t have fun everyday, if so then it is not fun anymore..isn’t it?

Reality is cruel…. We all know…

But you are not facing it alone..k?

How we wish that we could be with you..by your side..

We are here with full support always!

Take good care of our baobei JiaWen for now first…

We will meet soon.again…are we?

I am not sure… I really wish to see you guys soon..


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Aik Hui……

Thanks for organizing this trip.

If not for you.. we might not have such a wonderful holiday…

It means so much to me especially in this period where my life is filled with works..

I’m sure it means a lot more to you as well!!haha..

Ok lah..It means tons to each of us…

Never leave a regret in our life.. familiar? Yea? I remember seeing this phrase in your blog!

You should be proud of yourself you didn’t fail to do this..

No matter what… you have all our best wishes! Our Dear Old Friend!



Babe…

Proud of you…

For being able to take care of many trivial stuffs during the trip…

Except the booking of Lowenbrau…LOL..

Hehhe..kidding lah…

Thanks..a big Thanks……

For making me feel secure and comfortable…

For bringing me to know JiaWen and Aik Hui…

For everything!!



Time to go back to work..

Time to keep moving on…

As I go on.. I will always have our memories in my heart..

While I am feeling exhausted…it will give me strength to carry on..

While I need a break… the 5000++ photos is the best snack with a cup of coffee!

While I need a motivation…our 5 years promises.. the house.. the planes.. the trip to Europe are going to drive me to the goal!


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I love you all!!

Jia Wen..I will always remember your “hahaha..” in the cinema..

Aik Hui…Your silly face is funny leh..hahha..

Yong Yong… although your nonsense is really crap..it is funny anywhere..

2010年6月26日 星期六

I am on my way***


It was a day off when I decided to try job hunt in chinese forum..
It is a college situated in City looking for staff in accounting position..
I made the call...while this guy said he already got someone as the someone offer to work for free..
"What if I work for free as well?" " send me your resume then.."
This is how realistic the world is...


The day after, I went for the interview and it is a small college in an old building..
with all the chinese admin staffs and informally working environment..
I was thinking..this is not what I want..
Should I go for it? I was worry..I have been imagining..
I have been convincing myself.....
Yes, I will go for it.....I will never know if I gave up even before I tried...and they actually pay me,although very little, it is ok....I will get something out of it in return.....I keep convincing myself...

I wake up at 7am while the bed are so warm and cosy..
I catch the 7:45am buses with any other OL..
The traffic is super heavy at that time..
I can see the sunshine just hidden behind Harbour Bridge..
I can see people with Ipod and reading..
I can't help peeping the gorgeous high heels wore by a pretty OL...
I saw the high school boy keep dozing and knocking his head against the glass..
I saw a cool BMW driven by a professional-looked lady just beside my bus...
Everything are so lively and lovely..I feel good...and there I go..
The begin of my day!! I am gonna be fine and I will go through this!

Work are not hard once I get familiar with it..
My primary duties are sending overdue letters to students..
Can you believe that...out of 600 students..I sent almost 300 letters........
While with all these 600 students...I check the fee balance ONE BY ONE..
The job is not hard...just because it is small and they don't have a good system..
The job becomes very redundant....And my eye has gone through a really hard time...
Then,I need to meet students as they always have 100 reasons not to pay the tuition fee even the term has started....
After that, agents are like Vampire...They can claimed commission up to 40% of what the student paid..
I need to double check whether they claimed the right amount always...
I am busy...but I get boring as doing the same stuffs all the time.....I need to face the computers from 8.30am-5.30pm per day with lunch break in between....
As my colleagues are chinese and we communicate in chinese most of the time...This is what I didn't expect....
I need a goal to be achieved...where I can't find any....I need motivation...
I am still looking for it in this job.....................................................................

Colleagues are very nice....they are straight forward people who at first I can't really accept it..
But actually this is how transparent they are....They are good people who didn't stop asking whether to get me lunch box even they knew I have been bringing my own lunch box everyday....
They are good people who said sorry for not being able to help when they saw me struggling with the missing amount in the bank statement.....
I am building up my social net as well...isn't it?
After all...we are all from the same background who works hard for a better life~~~



I am such a greedy person..
Even I have determined to do well,I was so easily affected by many factors...I am still not sure whether to stay in this job......
I have to stop thinking the bad factors and believe that I am lucky enough to get this job..
My emotion has to be stable to keep me determined...
I have no idea what others working environment like...Maybe this is the real world where people don't get what they expected always...I didn't know the real world..I was a naive little girl..
Do I know it now? I doubt.....
I am lucky enough...at least I am on my way now...
At least I am not alone.....



I am still working in the cafe...
It is where I built my confidence..
It is where I am trusted and given responsibility...
It is where I improved my communication..
It is where I grew up during the past 2 years...
Ya,I have been working 7 days a week  for a month now...
My days are  full..My weeks are full......
I eat proper meal everyday...Babe always make sure I have enough fruit and vegetable..I have to make sure I am healthy.....
I am fine and actually I have been used to wake up at 7am even the alarm is off....
I do my shopping during shopping night....
I do my reading on the buses....
It is not gonna last long, I know...This is just a short period..I will get over it..
And till that time....my effort is going to pay off...


Thanks for the support from my dearest family and my understanding friends.....
from my babe..sorry for being acting dramatically always..
I wasn't sure all the time....I keep changing all the time..
It is because I feel very unsecured of my choice... I need advice and support all the time..
I am greedy..yes...so I need unlimited supply of mentally support..anywhere anytime...
as long as it is from you all!!! I need motivation! of coz..I will try to complain less.....

Can't wait for the one week off to Melburne after all the hard work...
Thanks aik and wen coming for that...We really need a superb excuse for a break...Looking forward...

2010年6月25日 星期五

**Our 1st Car**My First Job**

There is too much going on in June..
It has been busy..Exhausted...Tough..
But...We never fail to live everyday to the fullest...

This is our first car!
We got it after months of hard work...
We got it with all our efforts....
Proud to have it!!
Our first BABY CAMRY!!



I got a job..
It is more like a half volunteer job..
In a College operated by Chinese...
It is not a formally office...It is different from what I imagine..
no formal dress...not a professional workplace...
On the first day I wore high heels...I saw a paper on the lift stating:Lift stop working..
And then on...I will always make sure I am wearing a flat heels..haha...
It is tough to work 5 days,45hours per week...
Everyday...I am telling myself I can do it!!



I will write a blog ..soon..a blog..from heart....
Dear friends...I miss you all..Just can't wait to update my status...

2010年5月1日 星期六

I miss you......

It is only 2 weeks..
But to me it is like a month...

Dad and Mum only come for a week...
It is so short....and too short..
Mum haven't got a chance to see how I cook..
Dad haven't got a chance to play the tennis with me...
We have been travelling...
and one week just gone like that...
I miss you....so much...
It is like a dream...dad,mum and sis appear in my rooom and we slept together..
Mum...i have so much to tell you but we are always too tired to talk...
Dad... I am so glad to see you in such a good mood everyday..
So glad that you finally get to rest for the whole week...no work...only sunny sun shine mood...
sis....so glad you were here,and I find that I need you...
I need a sis for me to help me dress up,to choose the color of the dress for shopping..
you are the one..no doubt...
Hopefully...you are coming here for Uni soon!! Hopefully...

Argh....
I wonder when is next that mum and dad visiting...I miss you so much..
you never know....

When you all gone..
It means I am starting my dull life again..
From Zero..
Yeah,got rejected by that one and only one interview just because someone is better...
Well....there are billions of people out there better than me...Can I avoid them just once?
..... yeah....It is discouraging...but it is ok...I will be fine...soon..
Keep going on and on....looking for the one that suit me!
I realised that I am so fragile...When dad and mum is here..I feel like to rely on them...
The strength that I built up for facing failure all these time gone...because I always want to be the little girl...
I spend time..getting my courage and energy back.....again...

There is so much going on in my mind..
I need to face it....
go on..and on...
another sunday again....
A long long day.............................................................

It has been so cold these few days while it was bloody hot like summer last week...
The earth is sick...
Come on..recovered and get back to your normal routine...
You can't declare sick and do nothing..
You can make it....
You make me so sick as well...
I can make it.....
Hope everything is going to be smooth and good...

It has been so busy..
too busy for mailbox...too busy for watering the plant..
too busy for everything....
Although it is tiring..I am gonna to miss it so much....
It all worth it................